Behind... according to who? & other thoughts.

**Okay since I haven't really blogged since the middle of March I thought it was time to catch up... but I know the feeling of being behind stems from pressure I put on myself to keep up with all that I have going on. So, I started my post with the title "behind", but honestly, I have kept up on so many other things during my blogging lapse that I cannot say I am behind, just keeping up with life...does that even make sense? Perhaps not. I just don't like hearing people say, " I am a bad blogger," or "I SHOULD have blogged and haven't," or "I cannot blog about today because I need to catch up first." I don't like these phrases because who is the BLOG KING? Blogs are a fun way to share thoughts, photos, your life and other random stuff, the whens or the whats are not set in stone. I have had this outlook on my journals for my whole life and decided recently that I will just do the best I can to make a journal, note about my day or what not, and know that if I don't get to writing, hopefully I am doing something else worth while and hopefully my memories won't fade too soon... Am I still making no sense? Oh well, there's the inside of my head for you and here is another part.....

** Had a CRAZY, but great weekend. (okay you can skip this if you like, I seemed to ramble more, but hey it is my journal right?)
Friday: Worked an hour and a half, then ran errands (perhaps last stop to Randazzos? Will blog about later), cooked a delicious salsa verde enchilada dish along side my hubby, and got another "daughter for the weekend" (Audrey), then gave a spiritual thought about inner beauty to the young women, and had started our three part series of watching Monty Python and the Holy Grail. This is one of Dave's classic movies that every time we have tried to watch over the course of the past 10 years I have fallen asleep and he has finished. I think that we have only tried twice, but I laugh at that. This time I resorted to watching increments that I could handle. Not that I don't enjoy it... it is slap stick stupid humor which we both love... just cuddling with Dave late and night gets a little toooooo comfortable.

Saturday: Woke up to Anna at 6:40 asking where Audrey was... "No it isn't time to wake up yet" was my thought, but alas the excitement was too much to handle for these little friends. Audrey woke up shortly after that. Cooked in the kitchen all morning from 7-11 getting cleaned up, cutting fruit, cooking breakfast, making salads and preparing for a fun event. Helped get the girls down for a nap and was off to a baby shower for my friend Carrie. I will post photos later... it was amazing. Came home cleaned up the house with the girls, Anna had a meltdown, took the kids to kids swap (thank you Abernethys you truly saved the night!) and went to dinner and ice cream with the Owens and shopped at the M den. I have really wanted a Michigan t -shirt and haven't gotten one... I found one and am happy. Came home, got the girls to bed, did my primary lesson and started part two of the movie. ( Mind you I looked and the movie is only an hour and a half long). Started to fall asleep. zzzzzz

Sunday: Got to sleep until 7:20 today, Anna and Audrey still excited to see one another. We played, bathed, ate breakfast, and rushed to church. It was a great Sacrament on the Resurrection. I found myself deep in thought and forgetting the toddlers sitting on the bench with me.
*I have been trying to focus more on the Savior in my life lately, especially since the beginning of March. I have wanted to learn more about His life and resurrection, and how I can be more like him. I realized that though I am praying and reading the scriptures almost everyday and learning more about prayer and family that my testimony of the Savior had not been progressing. As I came to this realization I noticed that I began to blame the outline of lessons at church or subjects in Sacrament. I FELT like often times other parts of the gospel were such a focus that we lost touch with the head of our Church. I belong to The Church of JESUS CHRIST of Latter Day Saints and should know my Savior. One day I was thinking about this and I realized that MY lack of getting to know my Savior or trying to emulate him in my life was no ones fault but MY OWN. Worshipping on the Sabbath is only one step in our spiritual growth (and a very important one),but it is our own personal study, prayer, meditation, and worshipping that will help us grow. I actually have learned this from an example not of my same faith. I hope to try harder to draw nearer to the Lord and live a life pleasing to him, one that others see as Christ like and want to know him because they know me (another thought from someone not of my faith.)

*I am also thankful today for rejuvenating Hymns like "I Know that My Redeemer Lives" and the other hymn we sang.. with the SAME title, but different lyrics and tunes.

**I am a little flustered right now due to my crazy 2 year old who has been in bed for over an hour and a half and WON'T sleep, though she is very tired. I told myself she would stay there until she did, it might be a long day.

Two reasons why she won't sleep:
1) fell asleep in the car when I took a friend home from church, got 20 minutes and won't sleep again (this unfortunately used the work and I am realizing now that it doesn't fly anymore.)
2) She has a cute friend staying with us for the weekend. And though her friend is being a gem, she has been a little off. I think she is a little too excited to sleep.

Worries about the situation:
1) Becoming more of a jealous mommy's girl... that cannot work with my job and with babies down the road
2) Not taking naps... she is NOT ready for this stage, is a royal mess if she doesn't sleep.
3) We wanted to transition her to a big girl bed once we move, but I don't think it will work, there is no way she would stay in it.
4) I hope she behaves better in a couple of weeks when we leave her with the same friend for 4 days. Yikes. Dave and I were not her biggest fans yesterday from about 4:30 - 5:30, major meltdown like I have never seen before! Good luck Nelsons. I will start my prayers now.

Okay as I continue this post she is finally asleep... 2 hours later! Geez! Now Audrey will probably wake up. I was counting on a nap for myself... think I slept for 20-30 minutes, just enough to get me energy to blog. (another 45 minutes later of my ramblings she woke up again... what is her deal, I rocked her and she is back asleep...) Audrey on the other had is still a sleeping angel! (: Perhaps binkis are better than I thought.

**Life is so unexpected.
I just read Friday night about one of my best friend's nieces who left this world suddenly at only 4 months (?) old. She died unexpectedly in her sleep. I balled that night, haven't stopped thinking about it since, and and almost in tears as I write. Life can change as ANY moment and each second is a special one. We are lucky to be who we are where we are. Life is a miraculous gift!

** There are tons of unpacked, half packed, and full packed boxes all over our house. We move in 5 weeks. I am excited to have 3 days off this week to get the ball going again. I want to get ahead of the game so we have time to play!!