How Did I Get So Lucky?

Well it is past midnight I told Dave and hour and half ago that I would "be to bed soon" and here I am. I just wanted to post a little something tonight.

I feel SO happy right now and very blessed to be where I am at. I by no means post this blog to gloat or offend anyone, I am posting for my own memory. Dave and I were briefly talking last night about where we are in life and how we got here. We said, " Wow, how different would life be right now if we didn't find each other?" Crazy to think that 12 years ago we were gearing up for our first official school dance together (where we looked sexy dressed up in 50s garb- I should find that picture. on second thought I probably would burn it, it is better in a book somewhere in Utah- at least "the claw" was gone- right babe?) We barely knew each other (only had been dating for a couple of weeks), but I felt like I was in love. I know the phrase "meant to be" is a little cliche, but I truly believe it applies to us. We were both in need of each other for many reasons and it just fit. In recent conversations with my mom and with my mother in law they both stated that they knew we were young, but always felt comfortable with our situation and saw positive changes in us as we started dating.

I feel so lucky to have 2 healthy little girls. They are such a joy. Time is going by so fast, I need to remind myself to slow down, turn off the computer, leave the dishes, and just enjoy. I feel so lucky to be at home. When I first had Anna I was just getting the hang of the mother role and then I had to go back to work full time. I cried. and cried. and cried. When I had to leave her. Then after we moved I still had to work, but took Anna with me. So now, it is nice to be home and just be together. I love it so much, that I realize we get a bit stir crazy when I don't plan outings as much as I should. I love my time with each girl and just want to eat them up! BTW... My almost 3 year old was repeating this phrase all night, don't know where it came from, but know that she has good ears and a good imagination..."What the heck of it doin'?"

My dog is pregnant. At least we are 80% sure. I am freaking out. I have been researching all day and feel a bit overwhelmed. I have one more month to prepare, but feel a little frazzled. I saw some photos of a Lab prior to whelping and then afterwards. I feel so bad for my dog and what is to come. Also, I think I am feeling a little more empathy because I just went through it. I am excited. I think. But also scared out of my mind. "What the heck am I doing?" with a 3 year old, a newborn and now potential puppies? I am crazy I know. I REALLY REALLY hope that the pups come on a weekend or that Dave can take the day off.

I am thankful for my husband. He has been working 12+ hour days. Today it was 14, he came home gave us all kisses (I think the girls wouldn't sleep until that happened as they both stayed up late), answered work emails, then asked me to pray with him - the cue to me that he is going to bed. What a day! I am sorry that you have to work so hard babe, but I appreciate it! You are amazing and hopefully all this work will pay off! ( I know it will).

Modesto is great. I am happy here. I don't know how long we will have here so I am trying to live it up... if by chance we stay long then at least I have lived it up and can do it again... (: Today was gorgeous with blue skies and about 60 degrees. We got to get out with friends and go to the park. I also got to watch the sunset (something I truly miss way too much) and it was gorgeous!

Hmmmm, what else? I have so much to be grateful for. I wish I could spend more time writing life and memories down. But perhaps for now, all I need is to just make the memory itself.

Goodnight, perhaps I can rest now.